that life is like a circle. you have cycles (circles) of your life. moments. days. years. each circle has it's way up and a top and it's way down and of course the bottom (the way sucky part if you ask me right now) and it's way back up again.
he explains that the goal in life should be to try and make your circle as small as possible because then the downs aren't so down and the going down and staying down and coming out of it aren't so big. when the circle is small you always seem to be on your way up.
i dare you to try and make a circle with your fingers in the air to visualize what i am talking about. make a small one and then make a BIG one.
i am not even giving him enough credit because they way he explains it is waaay more eloquent than i am but this is my interpretation at 5:45 in the morning and i just have to get it out.
that is where i am right now. stuck at the bottom of the biggest circle of my life. i am trying to claw my way out and everyday i just take it one step, one breath, one meal, one diaper change at a time.
i have been meaning to blog and update and focus on the positive. lord knows i do have lots to be thankful for and am blessed to have all that i do have. things could be worse - a lot worse so - please don't take this post as me thinking i have things worse than somebody else out there. i am just trying to keep it real. i don't want my blog to be a fake place but i don't want to share too much either and it be a complaining place.
i just wanted to explain things a bit. i did finish project 365 for 2009 and i think i have all the posts organized so i can update and at least finish that on the blog. i have a few more stories i want to post too so hopefully those will come soon.
i am not abandoning my blog. i need this little on-line journal for myself. i need to stay connected to my little obsessed blog world. i love my friends blogs so thank you all for sharing your lives. i will try and be as honest as i can with mine. i am inspired by my friends lives and so many times i will jump online and click to see what is happening in their little part of the world and i get inspired and uplifted and happy and filled with laughter so i want to continue with mine so i can go back and get inspired and uplifted and happy and filled with laughter with our own little family stories. my three little ones provide lots of entertainment for me so i want to capture those memories for them.
sorry chris for not giving you enough credit and shredding your little mantra to pieces but i will always remember to make my circle small.
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